8/6/24 alone day 1

first day in months that i haven't said a word to her. i feel really lonely. i know it was the right choice but it still hurts. i get over shit quickly though so i think i'll be fine in less than two weeks. i also sorta broke the news to my mom.. she asked me why i haven't been hanging out with her anymore and she asked me if something happened and i told her its a long story. she made a bunch of assumptions asking me questions about what happened, even asked me if she was in the hospital. i just told her that it was complicated and it was a lot to explain

i started work on recreating the 2/5 train strip map that i made a while ago in illustrator to practice more and also to have a pixelless version of it. my reddit post is now the first result in google images when you search "2/5 strip map". making it in illustrator is definitely more difficult than making it in pdn.. but theres a lot of useful tools in illustrator like the repeat tool which i'm using on the black dots. im not even a quarter of the way done with it though

i played a looot of american truck simulator today. very chill and relaxing game. i just listen to weezer the whole time i play it

speaking of wezezer, i learned the guitar solo in say it ain't so today. it's still kinda messy but i've got it mostly down. i need to start learning more solos because i've mostly just been learning rhythm shit and my technique isn't so good. my guitarist friends say that i'm a lot better when it comes to theory than actual technique and tbh i agree

i've been listening to pinkerton a LOT over the last two days. i think i like it more than the blue album tbh. the loud drums and the loud bass and the vocals everything is just amazing

more people are discovering this journal. wael asked me a couple questions about it today and found it cool. wael's the one that told me to make a blog in the first place too. hello wael if ur reading this

this was a very spontaneous entry i was laying in bed already undressed and realized i didn't do my entry tonight so i got up and booted up my gentoo install and wrote this. first time making an entry on linux...... wtf.... i like using real vim instead of vscode with vim extension tbh

also yesterday's entry was kinda all over the place lmfaooo i was really out of it after breaking up with her. the meaning of the highway sign in the pic was that i made it in adobe illustrator and that i was getting better at the program

also im thinking about adding a comment section to these. i'll look into it tomorrow if i remember and i'll probably add it if it doesn't use javascript. goodnight