woke up at 6:30 yaay i love wednesday. still managed to get to school 15 minutes late idk how bruh i literally left my house 40 minutes before the school day started
in italian we rereviewed indefinite and definite articles and had homework on it due on friday. i did it during health class
in english we didn't do muchhh, went over annotating and also we got some grades back. i got a 64 on that one assignment i mentioned yesterday but i got a 100 on a short response and 90 on my do now sheet so yaaay
in band i told mr lembo that we should probably get straight into setup like we did last year and he was like yea okay sure so i guess we're doing that now. sophia is back she was sick as fuck i was next to her when she gave lembo her doctors note. she added me on saturn a few hours ago and i dmed her to ask her for her profile picture (its a cat playing a mustang) cuz i really liked it and she hasn't responded at all eermmm embarassing. didn't play drums at all today since there was no time. also apparently we're gonna start selling chocolates next week. im excited. it'll give me chances to meet new people. maybe i'll compliment someone in hopes to start a conversation
orchestra went as usual, on wednesdays mikulka kinda just lets us do whatever so i was practicing the new song on violin. i've gotten it down better. sylvia walks in and i wave at her. i was talking to jolin (THATS the girls name i found out cuz her instagram name is that but like really long spelled out i thought it just said "join" but yeah) and we were talking about what we wanted to study in college and i was telling her abt how i kinda wanted to be a music teacher but like i kinda didnt wanna deal with high school kids and how i kinda wanted to work in a private school to avoid that. mr mikulka joined the conversation and was talking to me for like 15 minutes about how his job is awesome and all the benefits he gets from it. ngl he really changed my mind. i've been thinking hard about taking an education degree recently. idk. i get stressed out thinking about college/the future. at the end of the class sylvia comes up to me and shows me something on her phone im ngl i completely forgot what it was but she was like "omg look look look" and yea. i talked to her abt her art that she texted me about last night after i wrote yesterdays entry (i had no idea she could draw and shes actually a really good artist). walked to my next class alone rip
in health i just did my italian homework and talked to zin about random shit the assignment was really easy
in guitar ensemble i was just talking to dan about random shiit,, apparently he got really mad at chris today because chris doesnt like when he skips class but he did anyway today and he was like lecturing him about random shit idk but he was pretty upset lol. he walked into class and started talking to someone on the other side of the room and just walked out without even acknowledging dan which is CRAZY
lunch was pretty chill, talked to ahmed and dan about our lives. i saw old friend evelyn from living environment last year and bought chocolate from her cuz i was maad hungry and there was another one of her friends with a chocolate box too and they were fighting over who i was gonna buy from lol it was pretty funny
in chem we went over heat transfer n stuff.. the girl who sits across the room who i have small talk with sometimes was asking ms li about her high school life and i asked ms li "what class did you skip the most in high school" and she told me that she only skipped english a few times cause she had a bf that made her skip loool. that's my favorite question to ask teachers tbh. ella asked ms bruno that last semester in pd 10 global and she was denying it at first but was like "ok fine it was math" lol it was funny asf. i miss that class maan
in geometry we went over translation notation. zin showed me his homework earlier today and ngl its more complicated than what we're learning now which is weird cause im in honors and he's not. either that or we're just really behind for some reason. we have a project too, we just gotta make a cool shape on some construction paper and color it in
in global i was chilliiing on my phone cause i was already done with the project and everyone else was just finishing their work. while im chilling there mr vargas gives me a worksheet and im like bruuuuuhhhhh and he finds it funny asf ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ i finished the assignment in class though it was easy a reading and 3 questions about west african revolutions. i went out to go to the bathroom and took a picture of the bathroom monitor and sent it to angelica to ask her if it was the guy she was talking about and she was like naah its someone else. she told me about a br monitor who's been staring at girls asses loool ive heard about him before too
omw to the train i saw the train pass right by on the EL and i didnt really care cause i was planning on waiting for joey anyway. she comes and we take the same usual route home. we talk about fight videos n stuff and she shows me some stuff from middle school. honestly i see us as just friends now. i feel comfortable telling her abt a lot of things. when we're sitting next to eachother we're literally snuggled up with eachother its eaweesomeee
while waiting for the train with joey i realized i FORGOT TO PICK UP MY VIOLIN and im so fucking mad brooo i cant practice the new song AT all over the weekend bro i want to crash out just thinking about it
for some reason, for the last couple of days after school, i've been feeling this weeeird loneliness and i hate it bro. i don't know if its because of all the girls coming into my life now. i feel like i have a chance with none of them. i just want someone to love maaan and whenever i meet someone new i immediately get interested in them and start thinking about getting with them. i don't know why this happens to me. i don't feel any energy with sylvia either. she's nice and pretty n all but idk. just dont feel anything.. but its only been three days i think. see what i mean??? immediately. i felt this way after i broke up with my first ex and its back for some reason. it's a weird feeling of longing(?) and back then i could only mute it by listening to music. that doesn't work anymore... i feel like its cause i need to listen to new music. i discovered nirvana after i broke up with her (worst time of my life) and it healed me. i need to find a new artist. i don't know why this feeling is back either. maybe its cause of what happened with poli? who knows
joey texted me about how these guys invited her to a group chat like "omg my friend likes you" lol bruuuh and then they were like "it was a joke sorry",,, bvut i told her that he probably does like her and she dms him and turns out it was true..... we talked for like 30 mins about it and i think she has a chance with him ngll.. she finds him cute too. happy for her. but she's just like me, immediately starts thinking about dating n shit when she firsts meets someone
also i forgot to write in the last entry, me dan ahmad and lotus plan on going to qcm on saturday. i never been there and i've been wanting to go for a while and we had nowhere else to go so yeah
i saw this video on instagram that was like "since 2024 is almost over name the best person you met this year" and i sent it to maria cause tbh she is the best person i met this year. it made her really happy and i told her that i'm gonna get her a gift cause she told me she's planning on getting me something too. also remember how i said how i immediately start thinking about a relationship when i meet someone?? i felt that with her too when we first met last year. but it went away after a week. that happens all the time... and my quick attachment too...... that's one of the biggest flaws in quite literally ALL of my past relationships. we get too close too quickly. it sucks man. but im gonna try my best not to do that anymore. even if i do have thoughts about dating them i'm gonna try to keep quiet and match their energy as much as possible instead of escalating things emotionally
damn i write a lot when it's late. going to bed at 12:17. gn